Disappearance

I’m sure not everyone noticed but a few of you amazing readers may have, I kind of fell off the face of the Earth this weekend. I was feeling a little overwhelmed and a lot intimidated.

I did it to myself frankly. I created this massive to do list in my head that engulfed me and from there spiraled into a tornado of thoughts and panic. It was an unrealistic list and an even more unnecessary sense of shame that I couldn’t complete this list.

Unfortunately I have the self-destructive habit of avoiding things I enjoy when I get overwhelmed like this. It’s quite counter intuitive and I have a hard time overcoming it.

Once my brain goes into over drive and starts avoiding things, it’s a slippery slope and I slipped right down. The worst part is I’m fully aware that what I’m doing isn’t helping me. I can logically remind myself how beneficial blogging and whatever else I avoided is in my life. I don’t seem to have the willpower in the moment to just do it. I should, or at least I feel like I should.

It’s been 4 days since I posted. 4 days of purposefully overlooking the little red notifications circle and finding any excuse not to open WordPress. I wish I had a good reason. I could blame finals week, stress overload, physical health issues I’m facing, or toddler parenting. The truth is thought that it was just one of those weekends.

That’s ok though. I think we all get to have those times on occasion. Times where we have to recoup and get it all back together.

I’m back today shiny and mostly feeling revitalized (I’ll admit I’m doing this a little reluctantly but I know if I don’t do it now I may never do it).

I hope you all had a beautiful weekend!

How is everyone feeling today? What’s on your mind? I’d love to start a conversation!

23 thoughts on “Disappearance

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      1. Not too much at all! Of the two posts I checked out so far I like them both! You have a very nice writing style. Thanks for sharing it with the world!

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      2. I wouldn’t call myself a newbie per say. I’ve been blogging a few months now but do still have a lot to learn! That’s so kind of you!

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      3. Oh not a problem at all! 🙂 Like I said I still have a lot to learn so while I’m not entirely new I am still a novice. Thank you for the nomination!!

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  2. Man, procrastination is the worst. Can totally relate. Only way I managed to conquer my problem was to keep a running list on a yellow legal pad. Then I assign a couple tasks per day so it’s not so intimidating, causing me to run away screaming. I knock them off little by little. Feels good to get things done, like a sense of accomplishment, and let’s me feel okay putting some things off until tomorrow. Win-win. Sheesh, this comment turned out longer than O meant. But maybe it’ll help!

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    1. I appreciate the comment and it does help! I usually have a list going but every now and then I overload it. I’ll have to make a new list with moderation in mind. 🙂

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    1. That’s always the worst! I see all these people energized by the oncoming spring weather and it just drains me for some reason. I hope your fog passes soon, too! It’s never fun to be stuck in a rut.

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      1. It just doesn’t seem to disappearing and everything seems to be getting on top of me. I just need to vent but I haven’t got a reason why yet which makes it more frustrating 😂

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      2. Sometimes not having a solid reason for the feelings is all the reason in the world to vent! I mean really, whose big idea was it to make the human brain feel things for no identifiable reason?! What in the world was the universe thinking when it said “let’s make humans vastly aware of their emotions and let’s make their emotions respond to nonexistent stimuli!”!

        I always feel extra frustrated when I can’t figure out what’s the cause too. It’s a real conundrum.

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      3. Yeah I definitely wondered who thought it would be a good idea 😂 I mean we’re complex enough 😁 I’m just trying to keep as active as possible and try and not think about anything.

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