I’m sure not everyone noticed but a few of you amazing readers may have, I kind of fell off the face of the Earth this weekend. I was feeling a little overwhelmed and a lot intimidated.
I did it to myself frankly. I created this massive to do list in my head that engulfed me and from there spiraled into a tornado of thoughts and panic. It was an unrealistic list and an even more unnecessary sense of shame that I couldn’t complete this list.
Unfortunately I have the self-destructive habit of avoiding things I enjoy when I get overwhelmed like this. It’s quite counter intuitive and I have a hard time overcoming it.
Once my brain goes into over drive and starts avoiding things, it’s a slippery slope and I slipped right down. The worst part is I’m fully aware that what I’m doing isn’t helping me. I can logically remind myself how beneficial blogging and whatever else I avoided is in my life. I don’t seem to have the willpower in the moment to just do it. I should, or at least I feel like I should.
It’s been 4 days since I posted. 4 days of purposefully overlooking the little red notifications circle and finding any excuse not to open WordPress. I wish I had a good reason. I could blame finals week, stress overload, physical health issues I’m facing, or toddler parenting. The truth is thought that it was just one of those weekends.
That’s ok though. I think we all get to have those times on occasion. Times where we have to recoup and get it all back together.
I’m back today shiny and mostly feeling revitalized (I’ll admit I’m doing this a little reluctantly but I know if I don’t do it now I may never do it).
I hope you all had a beautiful weekend!
How is everyone feeling today? What’s on your mind? I’d love to start a conversation!